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Posted at 12:40 AM

I am lingering between two dimension of reality and dream

Whoever knows the way to the immortal life?

I live in this world for I am coerced

Do I have a choice? Do I have my own free will?

No… because I am crippled, you amputate me

I can’t walk my way alone

But did you ever hear me whimper? Did you ever hear from me a single whine?

None… Because I am mute

I can’t utter a single word

Might not as well mimic my way to freedom

‘Coz that’ll be the most discreet yet the darkest form of escape

Perhaps I both love and hate music

I love the rhythm and the melody

Music has a life of its own

But why can’t I have one?

I am a lifeless, soulless being

I am dead

Yet I can hear the music

Still playing… still alive…

I can’t feel any pulse in me

I can’t hear my breath

I’ve already reached my expiration date

But can’t those restoration devices of your generation bring me back to life?

I am stiffening from cold

If you can’t revive me just lull me to sleep

Sing me a lullaby of misery

Read me a poem of death

And oh please give me some food to eat

I am suffering from hunger and thirst

I am craving for love and understanding

Give me heed will you?

For years you just fed me with hatred and vindication

Now is the time for sweet revenge

I cry no more, I cry no more

I am numb from sadness and pain

I have paved my way to immortality

And so you mortals bend those knees and pay the respect

The respect I never had when I am still the moron you used to know

Now I have the power

I can kill and condemn you for all I care!

But wait, wait…

I can’t laugh… I still can’t…

I am supposed to be happy

I am supposed to laugh like a villain in a movie

But still I feel so empty…

I am nothing… Still nothing…

Will you just lull me back to sleep?

Sing me a lullaby of love

Read me a poem of dreams

Send me back to the realm I belong

And once again…

Let me flash those grins

Let me shed those tears

Let me hear the music

Let me savor the silence

Let me feel the bliss and misery

Let me LIVE my LIFE as it is…

 

“Laughter and Happiness do come in handy, and so does Misery and Tears..” - Lileth Osido

Posted at 12:28 AM
A girl and a boy were on a motorcycle, speeding through the night. They loved each other a lot...

Girl: "Slow down a little... I'm scared..."
Boy: "No, it's so fun..."
Girl: "Please... It's so scary..."
Boy: "Then say that you love me..."
Girl: "Fine... I love you... Can you slow down now?"
Boy: "Give me a big hug..." The girl gave him a big hug.
Girl: "Now can you slow down?"
Boy: "Can you take off my helmet and put it on? It's uncomfortable and it's bothering me while I drive."

The next day, there was a story in the newspaper. A motorcycle had crashed into a building because its brakes were broken. There were two people on the motorcycle, of which one died, and the other had survived... The guy knew that the brakes were broken. He didn't want to let the girl know because he knew that the girl would have gotten scared. Instead, he was told the last time that she loved him, got a hug from her, put his helmet on her so that she can live, and died himself...


That's how true love works... SACRIFICE.

Posted at 12:27 AM
THE VARSITY DUDE
Opening line: "You know what, every time you watch me play, I feel so inspired."
His game plan: He's gonna wink at you or point at you whenever he scores
First move: He'll give you free tickets to his games
First gift: His team jacket or a UST growling tigers yellow jacket....
First date: He's gonna take you to a UAAP game between ATENEO and BARANGKA HIGH SCHOOL
Phone habit(s): He always talks about his great heroic game saving shots
Courting endurance: Really depends on how long the off-season is
How he will propose: After a game and winning the MVP award, he'll ask you to be his girlfriend

THE COMPUTER KID
Opening line: Hi!!!... ASL
His game plan: He's gonna give you all the anti-nuking devices to keep you protected
First move: He'll give you a cyber flower
First gift: New software especially made for you
First date: He's gonna take you to Cyber Cafe and you're gonna chat and surf together
Phone habit(s): He always talks about computer jargons, you never understand them though
Visiting hours: Whenever your computer breaks down, he'll be there
Courting endurance: It really depends on how much more free Internet hours he has left
How he will propose: He's gonna ask you over one of the chat channels

THE GEEK FREAK
Opening line: "Hey groovy chick!!!"
His game plan: He's gonna do all your homework until you realize his importance
First move: He's gonna do all your reports and term papers
First gift: A book on Chemistry made easy starring Big Bird and Pong Pagong
First date: He's gonna take you to a very silent place... the library
Phone habit(s): He always tries to review you for upcoming tests and quizzes
Visiting hours: Everytime you have work that requires him to go to your house
Courting endurance: As long as you need someone to do your school load
How he will propose: He's gonna ask you in between the bookshelves in the library

THE RICH KID
Opening line: "So whatta you want?" (flips the wallet open with all the dangling credit cards)
His game plan: He's gonna give you anything money can buy
First move: He'll take you for a joy ride in his two-seater roadster
First gift: Anything with a price tag not lower than 10,000
First date: He's gonna take you in his yacht for a cruise
Phone habit(s): He keeps on asking if there's anything you need, and he means ANYTHING
Visiting hours: whenever you're available
Courting endurance: usually lasts long enough for you to be as rich as he is
How he will propose: He'll rent TIME SQUARE and propose on the big screen

MR. SMOOTH
Opening line: Usually he'll call the girl and make her "bola"
His game plan: He'll be friends with you first and then he'll go for the kill afterwards
First move: He'll be callin' you ever night to try to be as close to you as possible
First gift: He'll give you roses or a teddy bear
First date: He's gonna take you for a stroll at the mall
Phone habit(s): He always makes you "bola"
Visiting hours: Whenever he can think of an excuse to go to your place
Courting endurance: As long as he doesn't get that famous line "..let's be friends na lang"
How he will propose: Over the phone (around midnight in most cases)

THE HEADBANGER
Opening line: "Pank's nat ded!!"
His game plan: He's gonna keep on asking you to watch his gigs
First move: He'll give you tickets just for you to watch his gigs
First gift: Some heavy metal CD you can't seem to appreciate
First date: He's gonna take you to Club Dredd
Phone habit(s): He keeps on playing the guitar over the phone, heavy metal stuff of course!
Visiting hours: Everytime he doesn't have a gig
Courting endurance: As long as you don't say No!
How he will propose: He's gonna dedicate this song to you and propose afterwards

THE PLAYBOY
Opening line: "You're my one and only."
His game plan: As far as he's concerned, you're just one of his many options
First move: He's gonna call you EVERY OTHER NIGHT (guess who he calls on those other nights?!?!?!)
First gift: A Parker pen, the ones that can be bought in packs (guess where the other pens went?!)
First date: He's gonna take you to a place where he's sure that he can't be spotted by his other girls...someplace like...McDonalds, Laguna
Visiting hours: Every other day (I wonder why?!?!)
Courting endurance: As long as he gets away with it
How he will propose: Like how he asks every other girl.. "Can you be my girlfriend??"

THE FLASH
Opening line: "Will you be my girlfriend?"
His game plan: He'll ask you as soon as possible
First move: He's gonna ask you
First gift: Oh yah, while he's asking you he's gonna give you roses
First date: (You have to give him an answer first before he takes you out
Phone habit(s): (You never really never got to talk to him. He is so goddamn fast!!)
Visiting hours: The only time he's gonna visit is when he's gonna ask you
How he will propose: refer to opening line

THE JOLOGS
Opening line: "I CRUSH YOU" (what he means is, he likes you very much!)
His game plan: He's gonna collect coins so he can call you from the payphone
First move: He's gonna follow you around like some goon and then he's gonna pick your pocket to get info about you.
First gift: He's gonna give you a pirated tape of the Streetboys' latest album with the special participation of Aiza Seguerra
First date: He's gonna take you to Ever Gotesco Commonwealth to watch a tagalog movie
Phone habit(s): He tries to make you bola by comparing you to Sabrina M. and Nora Aunor
Visiting hours: As long as the jeepneys are not on strike
Courting endurance: As long as..."He Crushes You"
How he will propose: "I lab u , puwede ba kitang maging syota?!?!" (---Jologs tlga)

Posted at 12:26 AM
Girl: Do I ever cross your mind?

Boy: No.

Girl: Do you like me?

Boy: Not really.

Girl: Do you want me?

Boy: No.

Girl: Would you cry if I left?

Boy: No.

Girl: Would you live for me?

Boy: No.

Girl: Would you do anything for me?

Boy: No way.

Girl: What would you choose: your life or me?

Boy: My life.

The girl runs away in shock and pain and the boy runs after her and says...

The reason you never cross my mind is because you're always on my mind.
The reason why I don't like you is because I love you.
The reason I don't want you is because I need you.
The reason I wouldn't cry if you left is because I would die if you left.
The reason I wouldn't live for you is because I would die for you.
The reason why I'm not willing to do you anything for you is because Iwould do everything
for you.
The reason I chose my life is because you ARE my life.

Posted at 12:25 AM
Our Father Who Art In Heaven...

YES?

Don't interrupt me. I'm praying.

BUT -- YOU CALLED ME...

Called You? No, I didn't call You. I'm praying. Our Father who art in Heaven.

THERE -- YOU DID IT AGAIN.

Did what?

CALLED ME. YOU SAID, "OUR FATHER WHO ART IN HEAVEN." WELL HERE I AM. WHAT'S ON YOUR MIND?

But I didn't mean anything by it. I was, You know, just saying my prayers for the day. I always say the Lord's Prayer. It makes me feel good, kind of like fulfilling a duty.

WELL, ALL RIGHT. GO ON.

Okay, Hallowed be Thy name...

HOLD IT RIGHT THERE. WHAT DO YOU MEAN BY THAT?

By what?

BY "HALLOWED BE THY NAME"?

It means, it means... good grief, I don't know what it means. How in the world should I know? It's just apart of the prayer. By the way, what does it mean?

IT MEANS HONORED, HOLY, WONDERFUL.

Hey, that makes sense. I never thought about what 'hallowed' meant before. Thanks. Thy kingdom come, Thy will be done, on earth as it is in Heaven.

DO YOU REALLY MEAN THAT?

Sure, why not?

WHAT ARE YOU DOING ABOUT IT?

Doing? Why, nothing, I guess. I just think it would be kind of neat if You got control of everything down here like You have up there. We're kinda in a mess down here you know.

YES, I KNOW; BUT, HAVE I GOT CONTROL OF YOU?

Well, I go to church.

THAT ISN'T WHAT I ASKED YOU. WHAT ABOUT YOUR BAD TEMPER? YOU'VE REALLY GOT A PROBLEM THERE. YOU KNOW. AND THEN THERE'S THE WAY YOUSPEND YOUR MONEY -- ALL ON YOURSELF. AND WHAT ABOUT THE KIND OF BOOKS YOU READ?

Now hold on just a minute! Stoop picking on me! I'm just as good as some of the rest of
those people at church!

EXCUSE ME. I THOUGHT YOU WERE PRAYING FOR MY WILL TO BE DONE. IF THAT IS TO HAPPEN, IT WILL HAVE TO START WITH THE ONES WHO ARE PRAYING FOR IT, LIKE YOU -- FOR EXAMPLE.

Oh, all right. I guess I do have some hang-ups. Now that You mention it, I could probably name some others.

SO COULD I.

I haven't thought about it very much until now, but I really would like to cut out some of those things. I would like to, You know, be really free.

GOOD. NOW WE'RE GETTING SOMEWHERE. WE'LL WORK TOGETHER -- YOU AND ME. I'M PROUD OF YOU.

Look, Lord, if you don't mind, I need to finish up here. This is taking a lot longer than it usually does. Give us this day, our daily bread.

YOU NEED TO CUT OUT THE BREAD. YOU'RE OVERWEIGHT AS IT IS.

Hey, wait a minute! What is this? Here I was doing my religious duty, and all of a sudden You break in and remind me of all my hang-ups.

YOU'RE PRAYING, RIGHT? REMEMBER: IN PRAYING YOU CALL ME. AND HERE I AM. IT'S TOO LATE TO STOP NOW. KEEP PRAYING.

(pauses)

WELL, GO ON.

I'm scared to.

SCARED? OF WHAT?

I know what You'll say.

TRY ME.

Forgive us our sins, as we forgive those who sin against us.

WHAT ABOUT CAROL?

See? I knew it! I knew you would bring her up! Why, Lord, she's told lies about me, spread stories. She never paid back the money she owes me. I've sworn to get even with her!

BUT -- YOUR PRAYER -- WHAT ABOUT YOUR PRAYER?

I didn't -- mean it.

WELL, AT LEAST YOU'RE HONEST. BUT, IT'S QUITE A LOAD CARRYING AROUND ALL THAT BITTERNESS AND RESENTMENT ISN'T IT?

Yes, but I'll feel better as soon as I get even with her. Boy, have I got some plans for her. She'll wish she had never been born.

NO, YOU WON'T FEEL ANY BETTER. YOU'LL FEEL WORSE. REVENGE ISN'T SWEET. YOU KNOW HOW UNHAPPY YOU ARE -- WELL, I CAN CHANGE THAT.

You can? How?

FORGIVE CAROL. THEN, I'LL FORGIVE YOU; AND THE HATE AND SIN WILL BE CAROL'S PROBLEM -- NOT YOURS. YOU WILL HAVE SETTLED THE PROBLEM AS FAR AS YOU ARE CONCERNED.

Oh, You know, You're right. You always are. And more than I want revenge, I want to be right with You... (sigh)

All right...all right...I forgive her.

THERE NOW! WONDERFUL! HOW DO YOU FEEL?

Hmmmm. Well, not bad. Not bad at all!!! In fact, I feel pretty great! You know, I don't think I'll go to bed uptight tonight. I haven't been getting much rest, you know.

YEAH, I KNOW. BUT, YOU'RE NOT THROUGH WITH YOUR PRAYER, ARE YOU? GO ON.

Oh, all right. And lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil.

GOOD! GOOD! I'LL DO THAT. JUST DON'T PUT YOURSELF IN A PLACE WHERE YOU CAN BE TEMPTED.

What do You mean by that?

YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN.

Yeah. I know.

OKAY. GO AHEAD. FINISH YOUR PRAYER.

For Thine is the kingdom, and the power, and the glory forever. Amen.

DO YOU KNOW WHAT WOULD BRING ME GLORY -- WHAT WOULD REALLY MAKE ME HAPPY?

No, but I'd like to know. I want to please You now. I've really made a mess of things. I want to truly follow you. I can see now how great that would be. So, tell me ... how do I make You happy?

YOU JUST DID...

Posted at 04:23 AM
1. Letting go of a person you’ve learned and decided to love

2. Reminiscing the good and bad times you shared together

3. Shielding your heart to love somebody

4. Trying to hide what you really feel

5. Trying to hide the tears that involuntarily fall from your eyes

6. Loving a person too much

7. Giving up someone you never thought of giving up

8. Having the right love at the wrong time

9. Taking the risk to fall in love again

10. Hiding your relationship from someone else

11. Controlling your feelings to avoid hurting a friend

12. Thinking of him/her every waking and sleeping moment knowing all the while that he/she never even thinks a single thought of you

13.Letting go, because every time you see the person, you only fall deeper

14. Holding back only to find out when its too late, you both felt the same way, but were only scared to lose each other so much that you didn’t let the feelings out

15. Falling in love with someone you didn’t mean to fall in love with

16. Finding the perfect girl/man - with only one problem - he/she doesn’t love you

17. Helping the one you love to court your friend

18. Seeing the one you love crying for someone else

19. The waiting also hurts like h e l l

20. Having to hear … I’ve met someone

21. Agreeing to his/her wish to just be friends

22. Asking him/her freedom back so he/shed be happier with him/her

23. Asking you to forget that everything happened and be normal friends again

24. Hearing that you’re treated as a brother/sister (ouch!)

25. Sharing his/her future plans for the guy/gal with you

26. You stopped being friends cuz his/her bf/gf asked him/her to.

27. Being denied in front of people

28. Telling you lies where he/shed been when actually he/she was with a new friend or an old flame

29. He/she told you he/shed be leaving you to return to his/her ex

30. Breaking someone’s heart

31. Fighting for that one thing that would make you happy

32. That is, holding to a person who can not guarantee you his/her commitment unless he/she fix him/herself - then you are left hanging for the moment - then he/she says, time will tell.. ang labo niya….but you still decided to hope in him/her and trust him/her

33. Pretending you’re ok when inside you’re dying

34. Pretending to be strong and recognizing your weakness lying in bed each night, thinking of that special person you can never have

35. Being with someone you cant actually love

36. Pretending you don’t love a person whom you actually love

37. Being in love

39. Seeing the person you love hurt because of you and not being able to help that person

40. Having the courage to say I LOVE YOU to the person you love and finding out afterwards that things will never be same again when he doesn’t treat you with the same closeness as before

41. Having to face the fact that someone is capable of completely destroying the wall that you built for yourself, leaving you weak and vulnerable

42. Admitting that you love someone despite her imperfections

43. Finding out the more you try to hate him/her, the more you end up loving him/her, perhaps even more than before

44. Realizing how stupid your mistakes were that led to your break-up

45. The thought that this boy/girl used to really love you and you loved him/her as well but you didn’t give enough that she/he gave up on you

46. Sharing the one you love with somebody else

47. Realizing you were only a pill she took for her broken heart..not to satisfy a healthy heart longing for you…in other words being used…

Posted at 04:26 AM
i never would have thought that life would lead me astray...
i never would have thought that life would be this hard...
i never would have thought that life, as simple as it could be, would be this complicated...

i'm that close of loosing grip...
everything in me, is in mess...
i'm a big failure...

i'm sorry dear Lord..
i have failed you...

please help me...

Currently feeling: rejected